Today is full moon again (anyway this is some nonsense shit some lonely piece of shit is typing now, so don’t bother to read unless you are really that bored). Haiz I remember that there was a time where through the reflection on the bus I can see 7 moons in the window. That was supposed to be quite a happy and memorable day in my life; however no matter how much I tried I cannot remember the exact details of what had happened.

This sets me thinking… what is happiness? The girl you like accept you?(only to realize she’s not such an angel as you thought she is) Get a good job? (After slogging for years only to receive the golden handshake and a good bye from your boss, and realized that your CPF is not even enough to last you for 5 years), got 4.999 for your CAP/ GPA or whatever shit? Get married to someone who looks like Lin Zhi Ling/ Jolin/ Jennifer Lopez/ Ivy Lee or whatever shits look alike, give birth to 2 kids, and have a home at district 9? (Only to find out your wife is being unfaithful to you, those kids are not your, and the house being repossess because you have defaulted on your payment) Okay I’m being a bit extreme here, but what really is happiness? Why is something so memorable to me so easily forgotten? Do you define happiness as something that exist today, or for your future? I remember the motto for my secondary school is for a better future. Better future as in getting a good job, a happy family relationship or what?

Anyway chance by one of my friend’s blog, in which she did an online test and realize that her personally is actually quite rare. Hmmm… I thought like real estate, no one is this world is exactly the same? Okay I must admit that there are some people that really give you the feeling that he or she is like someone you know, and you also then to bond with that person more. However in reality your friend is your friend, that person is that person. I realized that often in this situation due to the unbalance and unfair expectation that you have toward that person that always leads to disappointment.

Okay back to the part on expectation. Do you often have unfair expectation over others? Expecting someone to think of you, expecting someone to call you, expecting your friends to be always by your side, expecting this expecting that. But what really form these expectations? Past experience or just your wishful thinking? Actually I believe that in this world the only people that will stand by your side are your parent, but that is also just my own expectation, haha…

(Huh you are still reading this? You must be really bored!!)